Tuesday, 31 May 2011

Noticed how i dont enjoy taking full lenght photos anymore!!

Just noticed as the years have gone by- i have taken less and less photos , and even the rare ones i do , i hate them ! the other day i was telling a colleague in the office that her camera is so messed up , because it made me look hidiously fat- fiction - i know but the simple conclusion is we keep making excuses to allow us keep swimming in our " uncomfortable end of the pool".

The straw that broke this camels back was having attended a dinner two weeks ago and we were all dressed up and feeling fabulous-Until i saw the photos! well my colleagues - hot, but i couldnt stand a second glance at myself.The face was wow- but the body looked well - Pow!

Lets just face it theres nothing good about being chubby - no matter how we try hoodwink it .
Its not healthy ,it doesnt look apealing so really who have i been fooling?

Buuut , admission is the first step to transformation .

Well as i said in  earlier , am done talking ..now am all about doing something about it !!!!

OMG-the gym locker room shockers!!!

So yesterday i had carried my gym bag to the office, as i have noticed i do waste so much time when i go pick it up in the evening . This meant that instead of going straight to the workout studio , i went to the ladies locker room. Let me just say those images will take a while be erased!

I know there is that adage- feel good when naked but come ONNNN! ladies!!!
Buuut , if its any consolation , i felt really good about my body and figured really i have nothing to be ashamed of , am very shapely , my pot belly has nothing compared to the ladies i saw in there..
I kept laughing quietly to myself and thinking ok how do these people do it ?
In any case in whatever state this women's butts-saggy skin is in , they are better off because they are doing something about it - not just whining as ive been doing for a while

I soon figured out why the notice on the door was in glaring red " Strictly Seriously ladies only".
I also found myself undressing with an imaginary curtain offcourse , in the locker room for the simple reason , theres not enough changing rooms to go around and it was peak hour !

The workout experience was great , tried going for aerobics and i was panting like a fish out of water .
I kept admring the ladies at the front , so shapely , so co-ordinated especially in the "stradle " movements. Sadly the back - where i belong(for now) was so unco-ordinated and with sweaty plumb chikcs who kept going to hold the wall from lack of breath every few minutes ...picture that .

But soon , ill be the lean lady at the front .
I must say i have noticed a huge difference in how i feel , my face is also glowing , and i atribute this to the sweating . Aparently sweating is really good for the face and clearly my face is telling this tale.
So far i have been in the Steam twice and loved the after look.

Am also working on small dietary changes - my goal is , not to make drastic changes that will bore and overwhelm me, but to make small adjustments every single day and then change overall.
This week i am only doing one teaspoon of sugar in my milky tea, i plan to do no sugar by next week .
Am really not sure i can give up on the milk as am still B-feeding my lil angel so i need the calcium.

Am also keeping my lunches really light , and no snacking in the afternoon . Am yet to give up my mid morning snack , but hey am not look for exhaustion here- one thing at a time.
areos- phoros coming soon ! rem they are before and not after ..

My trainer and am not going to the scales anytime soon - well am tempted but wont .
for the sake of progress ill now report on my weight in pounds .
Am now 184 pounds -Jesus!

Let the loosing begin!

Monday, 30 May 2011

I've had it with the chubby corner

Yes i know i look hot in this size- but wait till you see a healthy me.
Now that is the greatest debate in our house - but the weight issue is my battle .

For as long as i can remember- Chubby has been part of my name, my middle name if you must ...after high school- where i was 55kgs and with chubby arms , on to campus- got some chubby hips- 60Kgs..now am a whooping 92kgs and still being called chubby .

Wait- those damn folks who called me chubby are phys-cos- now i would give anything to be 65Kgs.
Problem is as time went by , i kept thing " jeez this is the biggest ive ever been ...75..OMG this is the biggest ive ever been ...and on and on - and i never really did draw a line.

Right before i got my first born - nine months pregnant i was 85kgs- that was more than four years ago-
Got a lovely job- and a car- and i think that was the last nail on my weighty coffin( pun intended)

Fast forward - one more baby and your guess is as good as mine- am as big as i have ever been.
But really where do i stop ...

I wont lie and say i have done all there is to do - yes i did put some effort , but always gave up soon after .Heck soon after my first baby - i went back to 75- which was good.

It just hit me a few days ago that am going to turn 30 pretty soon and am going to do something about it- bottom line am tired of this chubbycorner and i want to try - no i want to do something different.

Insanity is said to be doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.
That is why i decided to do document it - and who knows i may help a poor soul out there transform as i transform myself.

I dint use alot of time trying to make this decision - all i know is am really determined- i have already registered in a nice gym in my neighbourhood and i can already feel the changes..

Today in my office a colleague of mine ( who knows am gyming ) said i look good already - offcourse i brushed her off coz i thought how now- its only been four days.
But i did take a glance on my dressing mirror and i could swear my tummy looks flatter :-)!

Havent gone to the weighing scale as yet - my trainer advised not to- so the journey has began !
He advised not to get overly obsessed about going to the scale after every workout- which am dying to do because i sweat tonnes and am very sure i loose a pound after every work out but i will refrain myself.

oh i measured my body mass index =92.5/(1.5) - am seriously OBESE.

And all this time i have gone around feeling like the true african woman....well in my defense i have a figure 8-lol!

 But the scale is not lying !
Will post current photos later - as i look forward to my before and after moment -
Gotta run to the gym now !